THERE ARE NO WORDS

      I realized the other day that I hadn't posted anything since August.  Pondering why, I realized the answer is pretty simple--the words haven't come to me.  Why?  During this second year without Andrew, my sorrow--I realize--cannot be put into words.  How can one describe the feeling of loss I experience on a daily basis?  There are no words...

There are no words...

• to explain the constant sadness that greets me every morning when I see "Andrew's Room...Do Not Enter"  on his door;
• to describe the guilt (I know I'm not suppose to, but I still do) I feel about my role in all of this;
• to communicate the bittersweet feelings of pride I feel when I see his friends having success during their last year of high school;
• to share after I visited his grave.

There are no words...

There are no words...

• to say thank you to friends and family who have been so supportive;
• to express our gratitude for everyone's love and prayers;
• to explain how much the giving in Andrew's name means to our family;
• to give when one tells me how much they miss Andrew too.

However, there are words...

• Thank you for loving our son as much as we love him;
• Blessings to all who lift us up in supportive thoughts and prayers;
• Thank you...

~Andrew's Mom