Honestly, most of the time I still can't believe he is gone. As we put the bathroom back together after its recent facelift, I finally cleaned out his side of the medicine cabinet. I finally tossed his body wash from the shower. But still I feel his presence so much I think I can reach out and hug him.
So even though I am having a really tough time going through December without my son, December is going on anyway. Therefore, we did do a 2010 Christmas card. It is a beautiful card, thanks to dear Tracy who took precious pictures of the kids as they spent a fun snowy, rainy day at Gigi and Papa's. And even though I know that I am still a part of this family, the part that I added to the equation isn't in the picture this year. He resides in our hearts and in Heaven, but I really wish he was in our 2010 Christmas card.